I love my family and am thankful for all of them.

 Easter Sunday I wake up to a little boy who has brightened my life in a time of  sadness and sorrow. I opened his door and scooped him up in my arms and said to him.... The Easter bunny came to our house last night he just looked at me like ok what now? I took him to his basket and he looked at it and said" Oh Thank you Easter bunny" There was a little bunny that clucks like a chicken with a bag of candy wrapped around its neck,  Nickolaus grabs that bag of candy and throws the bunny over his shoulder and tore open that stuff and ate it then he turns around and picks up the bunny and hugs him and gives him a kiss and says sorry bunny did you hurt I give you kisses! I thought that was so adorable.  Of all things I think kids choose candy then toys,  They have toys everyday not candy so I can't blame them for that!  Anyways I dressed him in his little suit in which you see in the picture above and got myself in one of my new dresses but it was cold so needless to say,  I still wore the dress but I had to put leggings and a pretty white jacket that is dress shaped on the bottom so it flowed with them dress and covered me up at the same time. I put on my heels and thought to myself these are going to hurt after an hour so I grab my sneakers lol and shove those in my backpack.  We headed to church and made it there 15 minutes late,  That is ok that is when the choir is singing and they are so good and the people have big beautiful voices and we walk in and the baby starts dancing and clapping and was joyful. I was surprised at how much he loved it there. He was clapping those little hands and singing and raising his little hands up when they were praying. This meant so much to me that he feels good at church. I cuddled and snuggled him and was so happy for having him in my life, while I miss two more kids I wish were there with me. I think I would have cried too much if I had all three there while we were praying. I love them so much and wish nothing but the best for these kids,  I did pray and think of them the whole time.  I know God works things out in his own time so I am trusting the process although it is very quiet it is better off this way,  When you don't quite know what to do or what to say or how to go about a situation that is confusing and unfair and or hurtful and you have redeemed yourself and changed. How do you walk into an old situation with your new self and people who view you in your old way?  I am confident and I know how hard I worked, generally some people like to see others prosper while others will still see everything in another way the way of old thinking... You can't look at me like that anymore I think to myself, nor can I think I know what they are thinking and would it even be fair to guess?  I say how do you walk in an old place with a new spirit?  I don't want to hurt but I don't want to not walk in either. I just hope everything runs smoothly and I can feel safe and happy.  In the good old days they say when something is broke fix it. It can be done. There can always be a happy ending in a story that seems to have so many twist and turns ups and downs.  We have to finish the story in order to find out,  It seems this part of the story has had the bookmarker placed in it,  Slowly read it or write my own is the question.