.This girl: April 2015

Thursday, April 30, 2015

work selfie

I have listened and know hypocrites.

I just love how some people like to open their lying mouths and preach to others what not to do to people when they have done these things to people themselves! Stop by lying to yourself, about how you shouldn't get in others business pshhh! You have and said cruddy stuff you heard from cruddy people! You put down talk about... Lie about huge topics. You all know who you are... Bored out of your skull and crazy as hell is what I think. Hypocrites are unhappy, scared, people and they need to focus on themselves and the truth and stop being a fake! For god sakes!!!! You bother me! Period! If you don't know me you can't say squat and you did and still would. I'm a great person and a great mother. You don't know how much better I am by sitting back and seeing crazy happen lol! I think these people need some sense. So stupid and ugly also! They even lie about their looks and everyone sees your scores are wrong hehehe. Go head get you some more of that ego! Someone lied to you or you lied to yourself! Ahahaha!!!! Wake up and smell the coffee. Wake up. Nobody believes your lies and fake babbling. If I saw you in a park I would give you a dog biscuit!

Thursday, April 9, 2015

I love my family and am thankful for all of them.

Easter Sunday I wake up to a little boy who has brightened my life in a time of sadness and sorrow. I opened his door and scooped him up in my arms and said to him.... The Easter bunny came to our house last night he just looked at me like ok what now? I took him to his basket and he looked at it and said" Oh Thank you Easter bunny" There was a little bunny that clucks like a chicken with a bag of candy wrapped around its neck, Nickolaus grabs that bag of candy and throws the bunny over his shoulder and tore open that stuff and ate it then he turns around and picks up the bunny and hugs him and gives him a kiss and says sorry bunny did you hurt I give you kisses! I thought that was so adorable. Of all things I think kids choose candy then toys, They have toys everyday not candy so I can't blame them for that! Anyways I dressed him in his little suit in which you see in the picture above and got myself in one of my new dresses but it was cold so needless to say, I still wore the dress but I had to put leggings and a pretty white jacket that is dress shaped on the bottom so it flowed with them dress and covered me up at the same time. I put on my heels and thought to myself these are going to hurt after an hour so I grab my sneakers lol and shove those in my backpack. We headed to church and made it there 15 minutes late, That is ok that is when the choir is singing and they are so good and the people have big beautiful voices and we walk in and the baby starts dancing and clapping and was joyful. I was surprised at how much he loved it there. He was clapping those little hands and singing and raising his little hands up when they were praying. This meant so much to me that he feels good at church. I cuddled and snuggled him and was so happy for having him in my life, while I miss two more kids I wish were there with me. I think I would have cried too much if I had all three there while we were praying. I love them so much and wish nothing but the best for these kids, I did pray and think of them the whole time. I know God works things out in his own time so I am trusting the process although it is very quiet it is better off this way, When you don't quite know what to do or what to say or how to go about a situation that is confusing and unfair and or hurtful and you have redeemed yourself and changed. How do you walk into an old situation with your new self and people who view you in your old way? I am confident and I know how hard I worked, generally some people like to see others prosper while others will still see everything in another way the way of old thinking... You can't look at me like that anymore I think to myself, nor can I think I know what they are thinking and would it even be fair to guess? I say how do you walk in an old place with a new spirit? I don't want to hurt but I don't want to not walk in either. I just hope everything runs smoothly and I can feel safe and happy. In the good old days they say when something is broke fix it. It can be done. There can always be a happy ending in a story that seems to have so many twist and turns ups and downs. We have to finish the story in order to find out, It seems this part of the story has had the bookmarker placed in it, Slowly read it or write my own is the question.