Gym Anxiety....And this is why.

I signed up for the Big Vanilla a gym here in MD. Last month I signed I and my child up so that while I am working out he can play with kids at the gym and blow off some energy and have fun. I paid them last month and didn't go due to me being anxious,  I know I will do great and get addicted to working out and all,  I bought new gym clothes and everything its the starting thing you know.... I wish I had an adult friend to go with me to talk to and team up with and hang you know?  I think that I am going to feel alone and have nobody to hang with but I know getting in there and meeting new friends is what it is all about they have classes and everything and a pool! I decided tomorrow will be my first day there by myself.... I am going to change right into my gym clothes after work at work and leave work ready to workout.... I guess I had to make a plan I work every day so I needed to find a way to pump myself up after 9 hours of work to go work out, So plan A bring my gym clothes to work and change there so I don't have to go home because I will get stuck there and side tracked with chores! Plan B is the same as A lol!  That I really had to think about because that was a big part of me not going! Besides I pay them enough might as well go everyday for at least  two hours.  So tomorrow I wake up go to work them the gym. I will forget the anxiety I will meet people since I am such a people person not a problem at all! I feel better now. One thing I am dealing with also is that I have to eat more calories and eat enough to be able to tone muscle and not hurt myself! My body fat is under and so is my BMI so I felt like I was going to look skinny which is not a bad thing but I always looked at skinny girls at the gym and thought wow they must think they are fat! They need to eat a cheesecake! I know I am skinny but I am trying to gain muscle and I hope they can help me with a diet plan to put on enough weight to gain muscle because I know I can get really toned but that was when I was eating 3 meals  day!!! Check this out I tested my body fat and my bmi and neither are enough so I felt I had a problem with lifting weight and doing cardio! I move around so much as it is! I need to eat more but I never have enough time so I must make time to consume enough check it out....

Yikes!