.This girl: 2018

Wednesday, August 1, 2018

Card of the day : Eight of Cups Upright At this time, you learn what will bring to you greater satisfaction and joy beyond the obviously present material and emotional satisfaction. This factor is explained by the Eight of Cups tarot cards meaning. You tend to focus on personal truth by a need to get a deeper meaning to your life. Escaping from the rat race, you want to pursue more and more in life which are more spiritual in nature. There is a willingness to sacrifice your material passions to gain something which is much more meaningful. It reflects the starting of the spiritual journey of life. Your disappointed is also reflected by the Eight of Cups. There is a need to walk away from everything that you have skilfully built so far. Disappointment in love or the ability to gain material possessions can also be represented by the Eight of Cups. You are over exhausted because you are straining yourself for the possession of the material needs of life. You can no longer carry on although you have cautiously mover your feet for such a long time. The only choice that is present is to walk away from the situation. Although you are disappointed with yourself you know that you are doing the right thing before burning out. You feel to get less although you are giving sufficient or rather more effort.

Tuesday, March 20, 2018

After Surgery

After this surgery i am going to get a awesome job again... Then i am going to save everything.... And more.... I can make more than you and i already have gone way further in College and i am still not done... Im going to buy a house for the first time... Then i believe I've worked my butt of long enough... I have been alienayed away from my kids due to false accusations every Holliday it was DSS full of lies! That's sick and you had KB post that i am some kind of sicko!!!! Everyone knows how great i am with children! My family knows all your lies and knows you people will try anything to have me arrested for fake shit! You had CB lie and say i punched her in a courthouse and got me arrested! Liars! How about i submit lie detector test for all of you and your lies..... You lied to KB about everything! She posts horrible things.... Your the drunk who throws stuff at me and kick me in my ribs and call me names.... You cheated... You neglected the kids while i was working.. And you gave chase beer in his bottle!!!!! I came home from work and Chase was still in his bassinet with 5 nasty bottles laying around him and his diaper was full.... Clothes were wet and sour and his back of his head was flat from laying down all day! U denied he was yours and treated him like dirt.... And the neighbors said E was in the window naked and crying and they said the children were left there for 20 min all alone. I was at work. Another time i just started to walk up to the house and my kids were left again alone!!!!!!!! His m even stood up for him... I was not on drugs in which i was blamed for...... I was not prostituting either! All of that is a huge lie. I lost my rings on the light rail. I took it home from work. I took the rings including another 8,000 dollars ring off and put them in my pocket so nobody would follow me and rob me! I got home and felt in all my pockets over and over again crying knowing i must have missed my pocket and they were laying on the lightrail seat where i was sitting. I know someone got a chuck of change but those rings had unsentimental value at the time... I stood up for myself and by doing that i was traumatized and acting out because i knew i did not have money for a lawyer at that time.... I did what i jad to do and screwed up but i didn't mean to. I was worried, scared, and sad and i needed help.... Well i know now why i felt heart broken.. I would be losing my kids in a custody battle... Nothing hurts more than this did... I did not deserve this and neither did my kids. This is all not my fault. I have been attending college and have suceeded big time... I deserve to have my kids in peace and harmony... Im sure they are old enough now where they can not be coached.